Commander Venus - Raining Holiday, Pt. 2 lyrics

My eyes are empty The house is quiet now Today has claimed and ruined me My pulse is waiting As boredom strangles it I might sleep but I won't dream Is that what I need? Is that what I need? I wanted to see, I want to believe So I scratch and scrape to find To find a reason to live in a god or a girl Oh, I tried, I tried To abandon guilt, other things that don't exist