Comet Gain - Why I Try to Look So Bad lyrics

I was trying to look so hard I was trying to find my way I woke up sleeping With green eyes, brown eyes Get them away from me There's nothing I will forget There's nothing to forget The empty mirror I'll cut your face with a razor blade today And I try to look so bad To not fit in your world My pretty face is going straight to hell And I try to look so bad To hurt my parents now And heaven is the closest thing to hell I'm walking these streets again In fear of everyone With the scary eyes But it's too cold to be alone today Oh, fine to take a broken dream I'll tear my (?) on my jeans And in the clubs They all belong to me And I try to look so bad They check my social worth Those fascist dogs, Please get them away from me And I try to look so bad To feel good inside And heaven is the closest thing to hell And I try to look so bad I try to look so bad For a moment of true love For a moment of true love And I wanna be with you But I don't know who you are And heaven is Heaven is the closest thing to hell