Clariyah - His Suicide Note lyrics
His Suicide Note Dear Father I wonder if you hear me My screams not loud enough to wake the people that are near me I am one of many, many who've fallen victim But see I'm losing faith and the people they don't listen I feel as though my soul has already left my body As I tremble in the cold I wonder if they are sorry Sorry? Those words I never did hear a lot I seem to be your son more than my fathers, he forgot I wonder if I am worthy of this mission you call life Because see I'm walking down this road but I don't understand the hype And as I encounter problems with most of your human life I can't help but lose the stamina to fight for what is right Cause I see wrong Wrong in the way that they preach religion but sin every time they judge somebody who is different Wrong in the way that the color of our skin defines whether or not we deserve recognition Wrong that my sister feels she doesn't fit in because every magazine claims you have to be thin Wrong because two wrongs never make a right, and they'll be sorry when I'm gone but forget me by the night So am I wrong? For stating my opinion I'm only 16 but the world is my opposition I blame society for putting me in this position because hate is taught and hate is what led me to this condition I often wonder, actually I wonder a great deal How I can cut so deep but yet still not feel? I mean I feel the cut but I don't ever feel alive, it's like I see people living and I'm just waiting on mine So do you hear me now? As I lay here silent I never imagined a world could be so violent I am one of many, bodies you will find forgotten about the world and simply left behind Because hate, everybody saw nobody stopped Hate, the taunts and hits that I copped Hate, told that I'm a freak cause I'm not Hate, until my body finally dropped Hate And now every word they wished they never said is the reason my mother has to walk in on her son dead And this could've been prevented but the hate didn't stopped And you could call me anything but weak I am not Weak is the people who stood there that did nothing Weak is the reason hate is still something Weak is not me Weak is not I For I told the truth and weak seems a lie So I'm writing this letter in hope of some faith That weak will regain its strength some day And maybe just maybe if held in the right hands This letter can be read by someone who understands And even though I wouldn't dare write my name I;m hoping that this letter would spark up a change And if someone is lying cold maybe spark up a flame Stop playing with people's lives because this is not a game Change