I feel like screaming! Punching walls Knuckles bleeding Drywall covered in my blood Feeling childish I am wilding For the first time in a while Shouldn't have kept that all inside him Painted the walls just to cover up the colors And trump any glimpse of hope in the room that I grew up in f** that I'm still here In the same cage Caving in 26 years [Chorus] I still have the pictures The one's that were meant for me Nobody else has seen them Use them up on me She's been looking for synonyms for goodbye I might get my license to carry For a night at home, well that might come in handy Handgun, wanna do it by the books Paperwork, see that cla** that I took? Now, rest a**ured that ain't a mistake When I rest in earth And that gravedigger rakes That last of that debris Casket, half asleep Sadly that's just how it had to be Won't show my face If I had one to show, I still won't budge Embarra**ment is much too much We had much more than our parent's love I can't go on without you I still talk so much about you I can feel your ghost walking next to me Feels like I'm still around you (somehow) [Chorus]