Clairo - Harbor lyrics

Okay, I'm finished now And I kept my faith for long enough And I hope I'm old and fairly sober If I'm let down Maybe you keep me around For the constant affirmations While I scrounge for understanding And fall out I'll let you win and I'll let you tie The ribbon to my hair Just so that we could come back to this If we really cared The morning gates stay open If you had a thought that I'd be there Oh, I'd be there Ooh, ooh Ooh Know we could use a break Because I can't feel my feet Carried you all the way upstairs So you can sleep and I can think Stand guard when I am near Clinging on to everything you fear Keeping mе close while you hold me out and say "I don't lovе you that way" Harbor myself away from everyone else I'm half-awake and intimate Eyes closed and I'll commit What I wish I had with you I'll pretend until it's true I don't love you that way Swallow the pill, it's only fair that I hear Know myself better than I have in years I don't know why I have to defend what I feel I try Stand your guard when I am near Loathe me until you're reminded of the deal One of us knows when you hold me out and say You don't love me that way