Chuck Mason - Letter To Osiris lyrics

[Verse 1: Chuck Mason] Gun shots came from that pistol Fred could never take back You told him k** you, or else prideful words you'll never take back Ignorant pride when faced with d**h no lesser man could fake that And that same pride is in my veins I pray to God I shake that I hate that you'd neglect your kids the decision was his, I know this Can't say I'd play the offensive defenseless all seeming hopeless It's seeming to be deterring this dream's frequent occurring Vivid nightmares of that morning that my father had got murdered We made it home after school I got that news, looked at Chanel Wondering how she stood and smiled 'cause my heart sunk, I cried and fell Knowing she too young to comprehend the magnitude of the matter Twenty years I never altered my attitude on the matter sh**, vengeance instilled, get my vengeance with steel At five trying to catch a body the anger I had was real Grew to forgive the n***a spent my whole childhood plotting to k** Only God could pull that stunt my conviction that God is real So, forever live the king through my actions not just my dreams How many times that I shook d**h guardian angels on my team Pray my fate's not likened to yours gift and curse to bare these genes Sometimes I rocked your Karl Kani matched my fly in your stonewashed jeans So in silence cry my tears, bite my lip, and clench my fists Open a bottle of that brandy close my eyes and reminisce Memories fade like dreams don't you get caught up in that bliss 'Cause then it's right back to reality how bitter sweet is this And I write [Hook: Young Maine] Something special in a letter When I'm all alone wondering why you're gone I do this to let you know I'm thinking of you So it's Something special in a letter When I'm all alone I put on this song Just to let you know your son is thinking of you [Verse 2: Chuck Mason] I can't front, say I ain't scared, feel even less prepared Lacking paternal bonds that many sons and fathers share A woman raising boy to be man just don't equate I feel some lessons best conveyed by a man, not by the state I mean I used to run the block with my friends, my harsh reality I could've got shot like my mans and his reality A God fearing man trying to provide for his daughter Til some p**y n***a crept up and shot him in front his daughter So glory be to Allah, he ain't shoot her Guess the Lord had bigger plans, he saved her bound Lucifer in the shooter And no difference 'tween a man that's in the church or in the streets Ironic gripping on a piece and all we praying for is peace Nightmares are our reality we fear eternal sleep What I fear most my external won't match the internal me Can't even bare my own reflection, wifey making twice as me Only see my imperfections, failure's looking nice on me Not receptive of smiles, I'm learning many n***as tend to be Quite deceptive and cowards, seeing past they pretend to be Wanna grow with my seed, show him that all things are possible Never accept defeat and show him how to conquer obstacles Show him to trust in God, 'though His existence seems illogical He get that grad degree and ask me what the f**'s impossible sh**, nothing my n***a, know the world is yours to conquer Words pa**ed down to a prince to be a king, to be a father I write [Hook: Young Maine] Something special in a letter When I'm all alone wondering why you're gone I do this to let you know I'm thinking of you So it's Something special in a letter When I'm all alone I put on this song Just to let you know your son is thinking of you