Chris Rivers - BitterSweet lyrics

[Verse 1: Chris Rivers] Woe is me and yes you left my heart in pain Frozen overflowing oceans now just clog my brain Drowning in the thought that we will never be the same You chose the potion over family, for that I'm so ashamed This honey elixir is thicker than blood you figure Brothers mothers sisters run thinner inside your liver Me as your father bothered the farther you go it's harder to harbor these waves get Larger for starters said f** this picture f**ing quitter You realize all the things you had in store?! You once had dreams like that of kings but you gave up queens to love a who*e But now your poor knocking on the door to kingdoms unexplored Your future was so golden like Midas tried and write your final score I watched you grow from chromosomes to bones and traits of human beings But this honey in your soul has grown and now it pulls the strings And of course we want to see you high but these d** are foolish wings So when your crashing from the sky just know we love you when we sing sing [Verse 2: Chris Rivers] You left my heart in pain Hanged through the darkest rain Drained through the largest veins Change was the hardest thing And these endorphins pumped inside are dormant hiding all my torment Engaged to new bad habits now that seem to need divorcing Like a headless Horseman cause my hearts asleep and hollow Need to burrow sorrow mine will stretch indefinite like no tomorrow And though it's vital Can't answer things like "who's your idol" Life has got me suicidal need distractions for survival They say I should read the Bible But no I'm taking needles, getting higher than an eagle So I stand with God as equals, without the honey I feel feeble That's why I'm getting high And I would hide inside the sky, because to dive would be with people And all they did was judge me claiming that they f**ing loved me But if they did, then why persist in tryna take me from my honey? But now my lovely's just a memory Flew too high and burnt my feathered wings So when I crash upon the mezzanine Don't laugh just nod your head and sing [Verse 3: Chris Rivers] For me subconsciously it's hard to be so nonchalant and hardening Cause part of me is arguing with other parts thats pondering Quite the paradox or not but rather an anomaly I'm pa**ed the heart break I'm just repairing all my arteries Preparing for a war between better judgement and who*es Walking the tight rope between fine loving and gore Teetering on the edge between lost hopes and door that connects to The rest of the last dreams scenes that I've adored I gave you all I could and you're still asking for more If I could stretch out to infinity you still wouldn't be sure And we all should draw a line, but yours wasn't defined So through the pain I couldn't find time to escape all your allure They're emotionally poor tho' quick to claim riches Honey coated lines and lies from fake b**hes And I don't like the lime or light so take pictures On your own accord but just know that I ain't with ya I ain't with ya, drink fire the flame spitter need pain k**ers From all of these tiger like fang kissers, so hang Rivers And while he's gasping for his breath Know he gave you everything so d**h is really all that's left yes