Chino Xl - Reguarding Elizabeth (Save Me) lyrics

[Verse 1] I'm high feeling like I'm walking in clouds And seeing faces staring at me as I move through the crowd Feeling like the whole world just took a wickedness vow Ridiculous how hate has replaced all religiousness now Stop off in front of a church, I kneel and I bow Black rosary for all the pain I kept in my file Never reciprocated all the hurt that my mom allowed For happened to me, the amount of tears I shed could have drowned Now all I want to do is make my little girls proud And pray my d**h is quiet but my funeral's loud When I'm feeling inspired reaching my inner child I witness my illusion shatter with no angels around I'm hoping this explains why my hate and my anger's abound Abused and threatened with d**h if I had dared made a sound Knocked to the floor, silently curled up on the ground I guess blood's a rite of pa**age on the way to the crown [Hook] Save me I think I'm going crazy So won't you just pray for me I'm falling deeper than I've gone before Maybe I'm thinking that maybe If somebody prays for me I won't fall deeper than I've gone before I think I'm losing it man [Verse 2] I knew she loved me but it wasn't the time There was so much left for me to do, so far from my prime In hindsight, I probably should have sacrificed, wouldn't mind Bedroom apartment was leaking, I was out of my mind I was young, ain't know who I was, how could I respond? That abortion went against my principles, am I wrong? Gritty like selling my spirit out just in different forms Three months in the stomach, that fetus knew my voice when I talked Yeah, it was her decision true, but I should have fought And having beautiful children later enhances the thought I should've never wavered or caved in or stayed in a [?] I hated all things living, my descension and fall Apologies in the song but I swear I was lost Hope it wasn't painful when your little light was cut off As my ex lay there bleeding, started feeling remorse I pray their forgiveness for me as I'm hugging this cross [Hook] [Verse 3] I see her outside playing now and then She's got bruises on her arms like she fell off a swing Paid it no mind, I'm blind, guess it is what it is Plus I was having my own drama with the mom of my kids Ironically she became one of my daughter's friends Such a tiny little thing, her name was Elizabeth Her family stayed right down the hall from where we lived Sometimes I thought I heard her screaming, man these walls are thin Tried to sleep right after tucking my princess in Staring at the ceiling, know I need to mind my own biz But flashbacks of my own childhood would spin Of my stepfather's abuse, this little girl's innocent I seen her father one time, he's a cop and a pig Her mom an ex-beauty queen turned h**n fiend One day at the pool my family wanted to swim I seen Elizabeth there with a bruise on her chin A cut on her ribs by a mark on her chest She cried do you even have to ask one question, who did this? I seen the fear through her eyes and scratched retina lid Man I was gone in the head and I just couldn't sit I flipped You might think that I am crazy But I can't let them hurt this baby I kicked in the door with no gun in my hand You want to fight somebody mother f**er, you fight a man I'm in prison now for what I did Her dad can never hurt Elizabeth again cause he's dead [Hook]