Dear diary, what have I done? Am I trippin' or am I alive? Once I've decided I've got stories to tell No way in hell was that just another muthaf**in' dream Doesn't matter cuz I already know how it feels to WAKE UP WITH Body like a roadmap of pain Mind like a landfill of shame Tie my rope one more time Dear diary, had I known what I told you last night I would've never walked there to start another fight Banging my head on concrete wall, while knockin' on wood Thinking it that's gonna do any good when I WAKE UP WITH Body like a roadmap of pain Mind like a landfill of shame TIE MY ROPE Tell me once, I decline, I refuse to learn Shoot me twice but I'm not going down I will climb the rope you tied for me Beat me up while I'm still alive