Chelsea Wolfe - They'll Clap When You're Gone lyrics

I can feel the walls closing in And I don't want to talk anymore Wish I could quietly slip away And leave you here with no void The only reason I stay is to care for you Everything else in me has atrophied And I am cold and painless now I want to live but I feel nothing When can I die, when can I go When will I be free, when will I know When can I run - my legs are bound When can I go, when can I go Was born a blackened seed in the wild And I never was a child I was pulled right out of the sea And the salt - it never left my body Someone opened me up while I was sleeping And filled my body right up with sand I carry a heaviness like a mountain It forces me to remain Alive and ugly, alive and ugly Alive and ugly, alive and ugly When can I die, when can i go When will I be free, when will I know When can I run, my legs are bound Can I leave here, knowing you'll be strong without me They'll clap when you die They'll love you when you're dead And they'll understand And you'll be forgiven then