Chasing Claymores - The Optimist lyrics

The optimist in me Was slowly eroding Consumed without knowing Now regaining Consciousness from its long sleep Hanging on, both eyes closed It k**s me everytime I lost my reasons in the truth Forgotten what is left behind Like a father who gives up when he chose not to stay Or the preacher in the church who abandons his faith I lost myself but now I am returning The optimist in me Was slowly eroding Consumed without knowing Now regaining Consciousness from its long sleep When it's said and done I will take my chances Your expectations won't get the best of me Facing my fears Looking back is enough Retracing my steps Which way should I go? Like a father who gives up when he chose not to stay Or the preacher in the church who abandons his faith I lost myself but now I am returning It hasn't gotten any easier I fought with everything I have Nobody promised much of anything I'm still not sure if this will last I've lost my faith And only failure followed My dreams, my world Crushed by circumstance I found my way Only pride was swallowed Opportunity presents itself once again The optimist in me Was slowly eroding Consumed without knowing Now regaining Consciousness from its long sleep When it's said and done I will take my chances Your expectations won't get the best of me