Charles Hamilton - Reminder lyrics

[Intro] If I should die after recording this song I want the world to know that I always loved God [Verse 1] Angels on my side Demons in my eyes Screaming through my rhymes Breathing in my mind, keeping me awake Sleepy all the time Weakened by the lies Evil intertwined, with people in my life Leaving me to find A piece of peace of mind But frequently I cry, "Please just let me die" "Hcho is a liar, That n***a ain't your brother" "Halo is a faker, just like all the others" Who can I run to, feeling so smothered "Nobody loves you, not even your own mother" The ink from the pen, leaks in my skin The pink that's within, has reached the stitches end I think full of sin, I think this is it Please let me live, and sleep once again But everytime I sleep, I gotta wonder "Does the grim reaper have my number?" [Hook x2] I'm bored of both heaven and hell (Sometimes I think the devil needs reminding) Some people never can tell So I show em', tears from a dead mans poem [Verse 2] Cigarette smoke Giving less hope Isn't d**h close? n***a, yes or no? There is no maybe So, lately, I start to go crazy like a 2 year old baby Life's a radio station that just won't play me No clean versions, just obsence verses I kissed the witch doctor So, I've seen curses Skitzofrenic liver split between 3 persons I'm everybody's little brother "Come on, Charles. You'll get over it and put it in a song, Charles." But, do you mother f**ers know what it feels like To have your best work be true stories from your real life? You probably think the drug talk is metaphorical Little do you know I probably done more than you I only sobered up cause I can't f**in' afford it But, believe I'd be a junkie if h**ne was affordable I'm high on life, cause there ain't much more to do But, life's buzz is a light buzz There's gotta be more to do I write with a needle, my songs are a hit So overdose till you no longer exist So long to your grip Lose it [Bridge] Sometimes I think the devil needs reminding [Verse 3] The day that I was born, another man died The Hamiltons smiled, another fam cried I attempted suicide, enough damn times To know that man's ghost haunts me And I f**ing can't die You love my damn mind When I break into new zones But, my music, my grave, and my tombstone You feel the rage and the pain and it's too close The kids getting raped when they're raised in a group home Where is the loyalty? Where is the comradery? Based on the prophecy, I gotta be the choosen one In the land of the frozen sun And That's a hole in one No cough. No walkin'. No talk No d**h. No coffin. No orphen f** [Hook x2] [Outro] During chorus and after I think it's just me sometimes I swear to God, I think it's just me sometimes Y'all don't see the sh** I see in my head You don't feel the sh** I feel in my songs I swear to God, if y'all did, maybe y'all would f**ing get it JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! Just go away Just go away I just want it all to stop Just go away