Charles Hamilton - Losing Control,Revisited lyrics

[Verse 1: Charles Hamilton] Everything was so fine in the afterlife I'm in the place where convicts go after life Spent half my life trying to find some definition to it But it didn't work out no definition to it So I'm back in the lab, trying to make an elixir,that will keep me safe from this twister Another formula to make more than just family fans I know it's destiny but can it be planned I mean, so many people that play in this picture But they mad extra, don't know who to play in this picture But I don't ever play in the picture Reality the musical, no play in this picture Play on words,even play on the scripture, lay in a ditch Blazed from the haze of some b**hes,taking some pictures,of me laying with the misses Modest living seems so f**ing distant [Hook] But I gotta keep holding on Even though I'm losing control,control But I gotta keep holding on Even though I'm losing control,control Losing con.. [Verse 2: Charles Hamilton] Nowadays I get lost in my music Forced to walk the plank, get tossed from my music Get devoured by the sharks in my music Go to hell,end up in heaven, playing harps in my music That's why you never hear harps in my music Only one song, it was hard for me to do it Goes to show I know no limits I ate Pandora's Box but I won't go in it The secrets of the world can be found in me Tied up and bound to me Crown me please So high, my Ego is Below, He so co*ky, then he died, now behold The most, prolific n***a spitting dope scriptures The devils son,gods favorite,an they're both sibling And that's why I'm so sickening,so dig this, you earthlings just don't get it I grabbed the devil and god and made them both listen No dissing, no blasphemous, cold dig it? Never parlay for the paper, no poems written I hope you hoes listen to more than one whole sentence f** 100 percent, I put my soul in this Eating Dilla's Donuts, flipped it Proceeded to go nuts, oh shucks Will you little n***as ever grow up? I used to do shrooms, I was on that Super Mario stuff Now Luigi make me an my sweetie some fettuccine n***as would never see me if the devil was good So you n***as show some f**ing respect when I step in your hoods My message is good my messages should,be looked at as the same restraining method as Suge Before the truth comes, the messenger dies So I wasn't scared I was expecting to die Came back nothing changed, name still the same Name still remains, I came here for change But I ain't here to change, put them together If you looking for a fault you'll be looking forever I control my destiny, I'm the living nirvana Charles Hamilton, alive but with a different persona Just a shame I had to die without kissing my mama But I had to get the f** out and drift from the drama So come on, lets go fishing Osama Picture Saddam in the kitchen with some ganja,Biggie and Tanya Who's Tanya? Somebody's mama, somebody's sister, somebody's victim It be the names of the no-names, that we don't say So there really is no change, OK So trace me if you must, convince yourself that all of this is luck The Holy Trinity is us: HCho, Swiss, and Chuck No profile picture up Rip the dutch Gets the guts Get some dust Twist it up Bic it up And drift with us And by dust I don't mean pixie dust I mean the dust from your vinyl cause this is tough [Charles Talking] Its not over Another 8 from another great mind Never waste time, this cat died 8 times Numerology says that I'm a straight 9 So why the f** would I live life in a straight line If only I can make time for my great bride Then me and my great bride will escape time An eternity of pain, with the promise of bliss Watch how you fall in love in the bottom less pit [Outro: Charles Hamilton] I feel like my soul has been crying out man, I've been crying in my music forever I just... Feel like my soul had to cry, na'mean? I ain't crying.. But I ain't got nere tear in my eye I just... That cleansing feeling, na'mean, when tears fall I got that feeling. But I got a cute a** smile on my face. Standing here My pink tie, my g-unit tee, my pink bu*ton down and my dirty blue jeans It's all I got. This is all I got. This music sh** is all I got and I love it to d**h And I would do anything for music