Charles Hamilton - Scab lyrics

[Verse 1] Said I'm too white for blacks Too black for whites So it s**ed trying to find some clothes to wear And it wasn't any better when I went to a school Where you were told what you're supposed to wear So they all made jokes and I couldn't respond Because...well, I'm not supposed to swear He said I was a f*g Lose my mind when they beat my a** Man, I was poned of fear The next day in cla**, I would come in with scabs And they would all laugh till I was close to tears So I would stay to myself, play with my belt But I wish I had a gun and a holster here And I'd cry out for help But when you scream inside, really who do you supposedly hear? So at the school same old, same old Getting punched and kicked in my nose and ear And I used to think what if I died Then remember that they really weren't close to care So I walked around petrified Cause I'd just gotten beat with a broken chair And girls thought I was ugly and gay Cause I didn't walk around with the dopest gear One night I got sick of it Tied a rope around my throat wrapped around a pole Hoping I would choke from there But it's like god said, Don't you dare He told me to listen with open ears So that's why I wrote this here For anyone right now who's going through this [Hook] So if your self-esteem is low, then put your hands up And for every single goal you said we can't touch And for every single how that could withstand us Say... f** y'all n***as, I'm moving on [Verse 2] I went a good two years in high school Without the fear of walking round pulvarized I was actually rather popular And I didn't fear a lot of people over time And people listened when I vocalised my opinion And watched me with open eyes To top it all off, girls were giving me love Trust me, I was so surprised But didn't stop the devil So when people came up hating, it was no surprise I had a friend who had a little cousin who said that I hit him And in turn I closed his eye So the dude said, I know this guy Grabbed his dude and said, Let's approach this guy I mean I was playing rough with the kid So it wasn't like he was telling a blodface lie But it wasn't as bad as he made it sound But f** it, the story's over mine So Alex and Eddie pressed me And together gave me 50 kicks They were uppercla**men and brolic So each punch felt like 50 licks I couldn't fight back, I sprained my ankle So I walked with a limp like 50 Cent But from the immediate damage all I had was A couple of scratches and a blistered lip Something told me to get my sh** And leave out of that school instantly And that's what I did, took the 3 to 110th And got on the 2 to central(?) street Two goons thought they recognized me So they rushed me and jumped me Jumped me relentlessly They hit harder than Alex and Eddie And you know what they did to me, left me limping weak Broken nose, swollen and overgrown Can't see straight, my vision's weak And over time the blood from my nose flowed Under my eyes, making the (?) leak Looked worse than it really was, pretty much Every time I blinked, I'd begin to leak And it was like elementry and middle school again Cla**men snapping consistently And all the consistency was pissing me Off so much it could've been the end of me But it wasn't, I was fortunate So I wrote this for anyone who's going through this But it wasn't, I was fortunate So I wrote this for anyone who's going through this [Hook] So if your self-esteem is low, then put your hands up And for every single goal you said we can't touch And for every single how that couldn't withstand us Say... f** y'all n***as, I'm moving on Cause like a scab, if y'all keep picking at me And y'all keep itching at me And if y'all keep digging at me One day I might just open up on you Truly yours, Charles Hamilton