Chantelle Castello (FayDay) - That's Deep lyrics

[Verse 1] A needle in my arm, the thoughts in my head What's it matter anyways? By the morning, I'll be dead It'll all end quick, why not do it right now? Yeah, I'm dealing with some sh**, I just don't know how And my friend's got the powder, so I hook him up with pills And his friends got the rocks, so we're hookin' up some deals One thing leads to another, now I'm here In a place between d**h, and a place called fear I've never been so low in my life I was 'bout to be a mother, I was 'bout to be a wife Now my only f**in' friend is the poison in my hand And the gun under the bed to bring it all to an end And I'm prayin' to the Lord in the sky But it doesn't mean sh**, cause all my prayers are a lie How can I sit here askin' God for his help? When I'm the sorry f**in' b**h that put myself here in hell [Hook] Now that's deep, but it ain't deep enough to make me quit I'm on my last life, but I ain't gonna trip Cause when I die I know that everyone will just forget So if I f**in' put one in me, it'll help this sh** The pain is too much, and I can't even take no more Cause I can hear somebody knockin', d**h's at the door One more hit, one more high, one more feel And this sh** will all be over with this sh** that's made to k** [Verse 2] I feel the sting through my veins, feel the pain And I know I can't complain cause I'm the only one to blame It's such a rush when my heart skips a beat I can feel it from my head down until it hits my feet And then I hit the floor, still begging more And I'll do it everyday until I'm knockin' on Heaven's door So many demons, and I need an angel now Cause I'm starting to let go, and it's gonna drag me down My family cries, but it doesn't seem to phase me I laugh in d**h's face hopin' that it comes and takes me A fallen angel, and I'll never be the same again As long as I get high, then I will never be ashamed again I wonder what it's like to really feel pain So the next time I slide the razor deeper in my vein The noise fades, everything goes black In the end there's nobody, and there's no coming back [Hook] [Verse 3] I feel the pain in my lungs, I can breathe And for once in my life I am happy, and I'm free Everybody said, "You're never gonna make it." But once I saw my chance, man, I knew I had to take it So I prayed to the Lord in the sky For another day of love, and another day of life I'm seeing sh** that I'd never seen before Like the beauty in the world, and now I love it even more I made amends to the people in my past Now I take things slow, never move too fast Cause when my heart stopped, I got a new life Now I get to see my kids, and I get to be a wife Lost it all, cause of one little voice In the back of my head, and I made a stupid choice I was an addict, but I'll never go back To the things that I did that made me fall into the black [End Hook] Cause that's deep Deep enough to make you wanna just forget I was on my last life, and didn't give a sh** But when I died I saw God, and I just couldn't quit So if I f**in' put one in me it could ruin this The pain is too much, and I ain't gonna take no more Cause I can hear somebody knockin', d**h's at the door And one more hit, one more high, one more feel And my life could all be over with that sh** that's made to k**