Cephalic Carnage - Dying Will Be The d**h Of Me!!! lyrics

Living here, in constant pain, I'm reaching out to you! Feelings I have long suppressed, control my mental views As I walk this lonely earth, searching for a sign Something to make me want to live, cause' now I want to die As I languish here, in this house of disease, And decrepitude, feeling un at ease Slowly I put up a wall, to block away the pain Only to have it fall, the misery remains! It rips the mind apart, scorns my soul with rage Infects my heart, k**s my will to be My eyes cannot see, blinded from the sweat I don't know why I, feel morose today, Born with it all, rich beyond my means, Lately something has been burning In my gut it bleeds, making me despondent A victim of me Dying will be the d**h of me It hurts when I smile Only happy when, others are in pain When I was younger, life was in my heart Lastly vie been craving, suicide as an art All the ways I've attempted, was placed in the psycho ward In a straightjacket, dying cause' I'm bored In the end, dying will be the d**h of me!