Cdelight - M.I.A'ed lyrics

I cry for my own reasons why I shouldn't have to lie anymore for their feelings my wounds isn't healing i couldn't deal with it anymore it affected me from my core i'm now giving up my heart looks like a big black lump that is now on the ground to never be found i can't take it but i have to face it i tried for nothing i thought i was gonna win something all i got is space all around me how much can i pay for it to be my fee i'm crying out still dont know what my past is all about honestly dying cut off my wings honestly no flying what am i suppose to do i really dont have a living clue black, red ugly green what colors that i hadnt seen my personality is scary like an over size ogar still me getting colder no one knows what to say but all i got to say is ive been M.I.A'ed