thought it would be ok if i made a list of the things i do on a regular basis, like i stay in my room for a resonable amount of time. then go jogging, have vegetables for dinner or something. now that i look at the list i see that the only time i get to talk with people is when i go to the store and buy the groceries. 'give me two bananas, two apples', i look for change so that the man behind the register feels happy. when i get home i think about what i said at the store. leave vegetables at the table. i go to my room, change my clothes for something more comfortable like sports clothes, lakai shoes the green ones. i go outside again and look at people like i own this clothes but in reality i don't. i run or play in the court. constantly thinking about the vegetables i eat and how tired i am of having those things for dinner. hoping i don't run into any of my exes. then usualy someones aproaches and ask me for the basquetball, they make 2-3 shots and i see them faces feeling dissapointment and inmediately say 'haven't play in a while'. they keep trying but i tell them i went there because i wanted to run-move not stand there waiting for my body to freeze. i don't know. everything seems so boring. even if i had someone to share this with. what's the porpuse of things if sharing things with someone's not enough.