Caskey - When I'm Gone lyrics

[Intro] I been thinkin bout it all the time When I'm gone will they mourn me? When I'm gone will they mourn me? I think about it all the time When I'm gone will they mourn me? [Verse] Man I been thinkin' bout my pops back in '89 Like how you work two jobs and say he fine Knowin' damn well he movin' coke on the side Countin bags and hopin he thrive I feel it so deep inside The pain of bearin' a child and it ain't like nobody dies So you coppin' extra guns, walkin' with army knives Thoughts of losin' her and you can't look in her mommy eyes Three bodies hit my house tried rapin' my momma They high off angel dust You ran to the crib, did what an angel must Popped the shotgun in their chest, my city dangerous But we didn't worry because you came with us 16 years of survival you was my idol Now Im on bridges and standing idle In a world full of minor disputes over the title and I just want our connection back that was vital You ain't ever seen no grown man cry Until he start reflectin' back on Christmas time When you and Amanda came back from the truck And yall was sniffin' lines It f** with me knowing that you ain't sh** sometimes! And everybody carry demons You was suppose to be the God who brought faith to the odds now we just even And Im inside my room grievin' Some of your actions got me questionin' everything I believe in Wheres God when you need him? [Outro] I spent so many years of my life as a child out here callin' for meaning And you ain't ever pick up the calls or receive 'em and I'm strugglin' with all Im believing in When I'm gone will they mourn me? I think about it all the time When I'm gone will they mourn me?