Carnal Forge - Decades Of Despair lyrics

I'm drifting through life without any goals Blindfolded fool, in my heart there's a hole I've looked everywhere but I can't find the real me The righteous one, the one I always wanted to be In my dreams I'm all covered in blood Beaten to d**h, lying in the mud If I died tonight it would be such a relief My soul would finally be free To a blood-filled sky or down below, that's where I belong For I have lied, and I have sinned and I have k**ed your dream Sleepless nights turn into years Decades of despair All hope is gone since years ago Almighty god bring me home Unconscious for the last time in my life I hate it! Time to lie down and die Let the darkness take me home A beautiful end of my totally wasted life To a blood-filled sky or down below, that's where I belong For I have lied, and I have sinned and I have k**ed your dream Sleepless nights turn into years Decades of despair All hope is gone since years ago Almighty god bring me home