CallMeKarizma - I'm Alive, but I'm Not Here lyrics

[Verse 1: CallMeKarizma] In my bed in LA I've had way better days It's 2am and I'm awake I miss feeling feelings if you feel me I don't know if I'm sad But I miss what we had It feels good to be bad So I text someone new instead of you I'm sorry it's the truth I've lost my morals I've slept with more girls than I can count I hate the whole world but pray I won't be hellward bound I lost you but never found myself again My mom says that I'm selfish and she's right So here I am without a friend 'cus I pushed them away to write That.. [Chorus: CallMeKarizma] I'm alive, but I'm not here I'm sick of trying without a cure My eyes are dry but I feel tears Because losing time is my only fear [Verse 2: CallMeKarizma] In my car in NY Living just to get by Traffic s**s but I drive It gives me time to think more I don't know if life's pure I don't believe what I hear I don't play for the cheers But the world thinks that's what I sing for This world ain't a source. We've drained it all We have nothing left but big holes and heads The water's brown and your daughters down on me now in bed It really ain't the best. I'll take what I can get I'm pacing back and forth like I'm race "Ready? Set.. Go" Let go and fall in the pit We're all gonna die. We're all not gonna live But... [Chorus] Outro