Cadaverous Condition - Beautiful lyrics

"this is my heaven and this is my hell" where are the depths that make me fall into where is the walk that me me fall with you where are the depths, at them I stare where is the walk that made me dare where are those impressions that I knew now all I have are memories of you where are those eyes, so near where is sometime ago I crucify my sadness but just like Jesus it remains I bury my tears but I know the seeds are fertile pa**ion isn't everlasting thoughts rise anyway I set my memories on fire will -o'- the wisps never guide a way fifty five years ago a god departed today another life for me has started I drown in my own sorrow, revel in my mind I let my tears rain down on me and say it's beautiful the eyes, here and now and I die filled with tears born in your eyes, I don't cry delirium, on your side, pa** away oh please don't take it all away