C-Sick - Aftermath lyrics

[Chorus] Waking up I notice I'm still alive In my mind, all the time I visited suicide I was young just a rebel living his life Keeping my head high, 8 flying a kite I'm alive, I'm surprised I'm still alive I'm surprised I'm still alive x3 [VERSE 1] Used to have, Macaroni for dinner Only one vehicle, so it was walking on winter Going to school, still feeling like I was winning Academically gifted and never got into distance Always completed work and that was really the mission Came home, and notice a different vibe It was periodically different just felt like I should cry But I can't, cause a young age I knew It be better But things change like the weather Laying in bed feeling the first signs My brother was way too quite, so I just laid to the side Daddy ain't home, Im just wondering where he's at? Is he thinking about us or is he drinking jack? Is he thinking of changing will he ever come back? I don't know, understanding was hard Only 8 years old and momma losing her job Laid off for a minute s**s I couldn't do nothing at all [Chorus] Waking up I notice I'm still alive In my mind, all the time I visited suicide I was young just a rebel living his life Keeping my head high, 8 flying a kite I'm alive, I'm surprised I'm still alive I'm surprised I'm still alive x3 [VERSE 2] Dreams of being bigger and visioning her applause When I become the greatest with no worries at all House paid, new cars and food to feed us all I'm feeling a little Yeezy why am I so appalled When I make 4 figures and I drive my own car I travel every weekend, top floors I'm feeling tall And no one seems to call I think I'm buried alive I'm just visioning the now and moving forward in life I look at myself now and notice that I survived I'm gone, I just wanna make them proud So put the speakers up loud And follow me as a crowd Don't matter who you are, believed me or ever doubted I'm surrounded by these visions of having precious surroundings Goddam,Goddam In a different dimension, with AC for summer And different colored picket fences Woke up from a lucid adolescents My God [Chorus] Waking up I notice I'm still alive In my mind, all the time I visited suicide I was young just a rebel living his life Keeping my head high, 8 flying a kite I'm alive, I'm surprised I'm still alive I'm surprised I'm still alive x3 [BREAK 2] I know, I feel I'm buried alive Keeping my head high not thinking of suicide I know, I gotta keep it alive Roll it, light it, inhale it now your gone for the night