C-sar - Fade (Cecelia's Song) lyrics

[Verse 1: C.Sar] I'm giving up and drinking until I black out Another shot of the goose and it's coming back out A stranger's looking at me crying, screaming "Medic!" Another shot, if it k**s me, then I'ma let it I let myself fade, no longer felt pain I was out of there even before the help came The stranger followed me, is she real? Man, she gotta be She's like an angel that's sent from the heavens, guarding me I've seen those eyes, something about it's familiar Can't be alive if the one I'm thinking of is really her She said I knew her and used to call her Cecelia And watching me be intoxicated was k**ing her That's how she used to cope with the pain, just sip and fade Every night was the same sh**, a different day Called me her mirror, reflecting the same soul I'm drawn to her, a moth to a flame's glow [Hook] I am falling I am fading I have lost it all [Verse 2] I took her home and f**ed her the same night And found out we grew up with the same life Sharing her thoughts, she got caught up and got me up All night, speaking and feeding on my insomnia But shared with me her dreams of living in freedom Where she had her thoughts bottled up, imprisoned and freed them She loved me but the girls would call her a narcissist Bragging in bars that her mans is hot as an arsonist She wrote the lyrics to songs that I was writing to Got me to rap 'em on stage when I was frightened to That got us closer, completing each other's sentences I felt her pain even though she never would mention it Her sister wanted to end her life just to k** the pain A manic depressive, and she told me that she feels the same She always thought about it, but she never tried to She has my heart and if she dies then I'ma die too [Hook] [Bridge] And she falls as I fade And she falls as I fade [Verse 3] A fallen angel that's slipping into a dark path Drinking and driving and sipping until the car crashed She had no drive or ambition, wishing it'd all end Standing on her windowsill, I envisioned her falling... Imagine selling your soul for your dream and finding it's not enough That'll leave you volatile, when ignited and bottled up Emotions come out spilling She kept it deep inside, no one cared about how she's feeling She wants to scream out her sister suffers a cut and slash She wants to scream out her real lover don't love her back She wants to scream out she's scared of being another trapped She wants to scream out she wish she had her grandmother back But they told her to s** it up, when she couldn't have covered that Side that she's keeping inside, suffering succotash No one would care if she didn't exist She told me goodbye and planted a kiss on my lips [Hook x 2] [Bridge x2]