Brockhampton - Sincerely, Yours lyrics

I learned a lot inside a year That handful of months Another turn around the sun Im still cold and burning up Like a raisin in the sun And im numb from smoking blunts I don't feel it when they hit me Way my father used to beat me I don't think id really feel it If a car swerved and hit me What does God got against me Ive been doing stupid sh** like ... and selling... I even tried to rob a b**h that got Raided by police I'm just glad it wasn't me And that keep me up at night But i'm used to losing sleep Because i live inside a house That's full of water neck deep So im always f**ing fighting To keep my head above the water If i could walk on top of oceans I'd change the whole world and make it better for my mother And get a message from my sister That's just f**ing fiction She out there flirting with addiction She don't got no time to call me Me you and our father All hopeless alcoholics If you get a chance to call me Just remember that i love you And i'll always be your brother For all the times that I didn't want to live Thank God I'm alive I remember being young I'd ask a lot of questions Like why's there so much hatred And why they call me crazy Mama said i fell from heaven Smacked my head on the pavement And that's why they call me crazy But that's why i love you baby And the day you stop fighting That's the day you turn crazy I could never pay you back But i could start with a Mercedes When i blow up imma get you everything you wanted now It'll never be the same Riding through htown Got a chevy full of gas Roll the windows down Hope i find some peace of mind Before the sun goes down