Boosie Badazz & C-Murder - This Ain't Living lyrics

[Intro] Tell em, I'm bleeding from the heart on this one n***a Boosie Badazz Look look [Verse 1] Last night I heard the rain on my window pain All I can think about is all the time my mamma begged me to change But I ain't listen know this ain't living Probably kissed yo kids through a f**ing gla** window, no contact Feel me through the [?] even took the telephone tryna holla at my kids Baby mamma never home sarge and his boys got a problem cause I'm Boosie Surround me [?] so they could tell on me cruel sh** Same whipping [?] sh** paint a bad picture of me With that picture in my head I'm scared I may never touch it Living like the rest of us they ain't gonna life working in the field man Over you with a rifle letters get shorter face get greyed up People ain't got no weed well I might die up in this b**h This ain't living I wouldn't wish this sh** on my worst enemy Feel like the whole world envy me, know I'm talking bout Co-defendant flipped on me glad he didn't flipped back n***a was like my real son k**ed me when he did that Look in his eyes and look at me I be like God damn They tryna stop a n***a shine huh bruh [Verse 2] That mouth was all life you know I'm KMG right Keep shaking on my cell he lude cause I'm [?] Plus I'm in here I got some n***as in here imo get out there But we go all just say a prayer Addicted to jacking off the magazine eyes teary I been looking at the pictures when I was free and I was stacking green Hoes falling off the team saying they are [?] Go to sleep at three at six my eyes open Food tasting good now dabbling to the jail scenes Steady doin triple life and downs he was sixteen Blew across the walls cause he been down since like ninety four Me I'm facing d**h f**ed up cause I'm his only hope He is asking questions that I can't answer Thoughts in my head my kids my grow up ba*tards Wishing for a holiday that will set my mind straight Mamma told me have faith and everything will be straight But mamma I ain't lying these times ain't easy Love it when you squeeze me but hate it when you leave me All the sh** I did for people this is how they treat me Smelling all night while they had they sh** fight This ain't living