Big Wreck - Blown Wide Open lyrics

So I'm all surrounded By the things I thought I'd put away And I'm all surrounded By the things I thought I'd put away And there's a pile in the closet That's where I threw some yesterday Maybe under the rug That's where I swept some the other day So the mess is drawing forces Outside I hear them say (Just) come out with your hands up So we can blow you away And I walk out the door Get blown wide open By the things I'd put away And I wasn't even warned Just blown wide open By the mess is where I lay So I'm all surrounded By the things I thought I'd put away So I'm all surrounded By the things I thought I'd put away And if I'm a slob I never looked at it that way Irresponsible Well you're not the first to say But I told her I'm sorry I never wanted it this way Yeah, I still need her But the mess won't go away And I walk out the door Get blown wide open By the things I'd put away And I'm out on the porch Just blown wide open By the mess is where I lay Yeah, blown wide open Blown wide open Blown wide open Blown wide open The gun's still smokin' Blood keeps flowin' Blown wide open Blown wide open [Why's she going?] All surrounded