Big Juice - Fiend lyrics

[Intro] Man, growing up And walking to school in the morning I used to see these dudes out selling dope I used to look at them the same way I looked At the dudes they were selling the dope to I could never quite figure out which one was the Fiend [Verse 1] I was a terror since the public school era Consumed with thoughts of cheddar Foreigns with the leather Teachers changed my name Start calling me 6th letter I said,"If you were a beside me, it'll Sound a little better chick." Flip a brick, flip a brick, whip your wrist like this Turn around and get rich That was the way to get Couple thousand dollars real quick Buy some fresh new airs and a couple outfits Got this small gold chain, but there's nothing on my wrist 40 cal on my hip, you don't wanna get hit Yeah, don't try the young guy with a very tight grip And loose screws that got Something to prove and a couple rounds of spit with Life and d**h He feels it's nothing to choose He views em' one of the same Have you ever seen the veins of a fiend With gold in the syringe, in the dirt All day he scared to get clean [Hook] And now, I'm looking at my life Through the eyes of my fears, but I don't see danger I'm looking at my wife and her eyes full of tears Told me she see stranger Aeoh baby! I'm a fiend (can't help it) Aeoh baby! I'm a fiend (so selfish) Yeah yeah baby! I'm a fiend (can't help it) Aeoh baby! whether give or take at the end of the day I'm just a fiend [Verse 2] Uhh, I'm here before the sunrise Been ten years and I can't look at my son's eyes I was scared so after hearing my son's cries I left his mother with no note She feeds my son lies "Your daddy died in Iraq While serving our country And he's never coming back." It would be kinda awkward if he stuck to the facts "Your daddy's absent because your daddy's on crack." I'm glad he ain't around to see how he would react I don't even have the nerve Wait I got another urge... *snort* *cough* *cough* See I'm a.. I ain't even got the words For me to quit now That would be absurd I can't can't see clear So the lines is blurred Life looks like d**h And d**h looks like life When I get this low that's when the high occurs I'm a fiend I can't help it Life I can't take it d**h, I can't cheat it This pain I can't fake it I tried At times, I'm so high I can't make it Back to ground zero My soul has been taken Innocent and naked That's how I entered earth The great birth to this nightmare Was awakened so now My ghost'll find me a tomb that reads vacant And spend my forever Take my life as payment Take my life as payment Take my life as payment [Hook]