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[Otis] Choking on paink**ers stuck in my throat 13 years old writing suicide notes Hiding razor blade scars under my coat Got on the internet how to tie rope To a noose, domestic abuse it's well written You hear "motherf**er" and "die b**h!" from out your kitchen When you intervene, your own neck's getting twisted To the sound of broken dishes flying all around you b**hes I don't understand, why would you even have children When you live in war-zone and front-line is our buildin' Growing up here, I've seen more than I'd like to witness Family's throwing fists it's just everyday business "Get out," my mamma tells him, she don't noticed me there's too much distance I fade back, see you in hell then It wouldn't happened if you only just listened [Hook] I'd be alive today, if only you'da heard what I had to say Give me the time or day, I probably be alive but I pa**ed away For you, to look at me For you, to just look at me [Bonez] Things really haven't been the same as they just to be And she don't think what this sh** really does to me This motherf**er only thought about his own and when she took em Everything fall apart now they're gone I tried to tell her what was going on, but she don't wanna listen Providing for the family was always been mission She ain't the type to stand by and show any support Got a letter from my lawyer saying I need to be in court For what? You're always f**ing screaming at the kids Treating em like sh** and I can't even begin To even think that I won't never see em again When you lose it all you think about is getting revenge She wanna stab me in the back, I'm gonna catch her alone I'm finna to put this bullet in my motherf**ing dome Tried to help her out, she couldn't stop b**hin' Could've been happy if you would've just listened [Hook] [Big Hoodoo] Big Hoodoo, I specialize in dead speaking The jinx homie quick to leave a haters dead leaking Life's f**ed up, I feel like I might die tonight Smoking on some fireworks, while I'm sniffing dynamite Cannibal animals, we learn from Hannibal Lecter Dismantle cantaloupes, get rid of bodies like I'm Dexter Come from a different texture, I'm a murder expert My eyes go black, I pull your ribs out your f**ing sweatshirt Never had, so I'm thinking d**h must be nice And I'm homicidal, so I'm also thinking "f** your life" Moms told me she gave birth to an evil genius Cause she gets pregnant doing d**, bumping "Kkk** The Fetus" My voodoo got em singing "yeah motherf**ers" It's Hoodoo swinging with The Garcia Brothers f**ed up now we're in our graves reminiscin' Of how our lives would be, if the world would've only listened [Hook]