Biblioteca - Apologies lyrics

[Verse 1] Guess I'ma modern day poet At first I never really shown it To be honest I didn't even know it I poured out my heart n' this sh**; Yes i f**en wrote it Devoted; I Squeeze it, Hug it n' Hold it; Transposed it; I Articulated Destruction into Grace from my cranium So I didn't grab the chrome n' started Sprayin'em n' Layin'em; OUT One by one at your friendly f**en Stadium; I better Snap OUT; This isn't about Ego Playing Now back to what I was saying The fact that I'm no longer causin Mayhem But In My Mind; This sh** is f**en Amazing Words Connecting; I'm a Mack 11; I Grab the Tab (Tablet) n' just started spraying [Verus 2] f**ing anyone up cause ima motherf**en nut But Takin away the Huff n' them Cold Steel Cuffs I'm sorry for all these years I always ran a muck I think I'm Tamed now but man it was Rough n' Tough It's time for a f**en change n' changing it is a must Solving this perplexing puzzle, arising from the fog n' dust And now I know who's my enemy; the b**h by the name of Lust So what I done wrong? I placed my Heart in the hands of Trust I thought; f** that; I Ain't Jack n' these Beans ain't gona give me luck Now it might sound strange n' its leaving u a little deranged I haven't really changed, I'm still the the f**en same n' this Devilish Demonic Domain I Formulated this Therapeutic Game [Verus 3] I found a Pathway A new way, New Me if I may Some would say a pathway to spirituality Or he's gone misplaced his sanity He's Intergalactic f**en Planetary But I'd say I'm being the real me; Ego Free And for all those who invested in me throughout the years Spent time, I love you all you helped me counsel my mind It was divine, through rain or shine, If only I could hit rewind Another chance; It would've been f**en sublime I'd cherish our days of a juvenile n' actually enjoy it; Cause I'd always f**ing spoiled it I love you all for not just getting rid of me, like a f**ing Turd in the Toilet This sh** is from my f**ing Heart n' mate; Im not f**ing scared to show it N' if anyone calls me a f*ggot i'll beat them over the head with a bat till I hear that distinctive Splat But if that was an actuality in my reality then this track will lose it's Validity; And that's a fact