Benn Suede - CatchTwentyTwü lyrics

I'm always stuck in a rut No longer interested in living with myself in this world of bullsh** Every day, every night (Every day, every night) All because I'm so lost and I'm unable to change But; to this day I try Swallow my spit Swallow lie after lie Eventually I'll put an end to myself Because I want to f**ing die (Because I want to f**ing die) I say I'm fine but I'm pulling my teeth out To taste my f**ing blood as it endlessly bleeds out I let it bleed so I can taste what is real It's not a good habit but it's just the way that I feel I can't help myself The walls are closing in And I want out I want out now I want out now I should've listened when they said I was wrong I should've but I didn't cause my hopes kept me strong It's a f**ed up way from the top to the bottom And I'm barely coming down cause I refuse to be lied to I refuse to be lied to It's all a Paradox And I'm slowly closing in to my end Swallow my spit Swallowing lie after lie Day after day I'm patiently waiting to die Swallowing my spit Swallowing lie after lie Day after day I'm patiently waiting to die I EXIST UNTIL MY DEATHWISH IS GRANTED (I exist) THIS IS MY DEATHWISH