Belle And Sebastian - The State I Am In lyrics

I was surprised, I was happy for a day in 1975 I was puzzled by a dream that stayed with me all day in 1995 My brother had confessed he was gay It took the heat off me for a while He stood up with a sailor friend Made it known upon my sister's wedding day Got married in a rush to save a kid from being deported Now she's in love Oh, I was so touched, I was moved to kick the crutches From my crippled friend She was not impressed 'cause I cured her on the Sabbath I went to confess When she saw the funny side, we introduced my child bride To whiskey and gin To whiskey and gin The priest in the booth had a photographic memory For all he had heard He took all of my sins and he wrote a pocket novel called "The State That I Am In" So I gave myself to God There was a pregnant pause before he said okay Now I spend my day turning tables round in Marks & Spencer's They don't seem to mind I gave myself to sin I gave myself to Providence And I've been there and back again The state that I am in I gave myself to sin I gave myself to Providence And I've been there and back again The state that I am in Oh, love of mine, would you condescend to help me? 'Cause I'm stupid and blind And desperation is the devil's work, it is the folly of a boy's empty mind Oh, and now I'm feeling dangerous, riding on city buses for a hobby is fine Why don't you lead me to a living end? I promised that I'd entertain my crippled friend My crippled friend I gave myself to sin I gave myself to Providence And I've been there and back again The state that I am in I gave myself to sin I gave myself to Providence And I've been there and back again The state that I am in Gave myself to sin I gave myself to Providence And I've been there and back again The state that I am in I gave myself to sin I gave myself to Providence And I've been there and back again The state that I am in Gave myself to sin And I've been there and back again Oh, yeah