Bastion - Self lyrics

[Intro] Yea Venture Let me talk to em [Verse 1] Flowers in the lapel of my Yakuza suit Trying to keep my circle up like hula hoops Snakes and women try to tempt me with forbidden fruit I see through it all, I'm like the Hyuga group But who am I to change the status quo? They say u gotta play the game to change the rules But all you see is the ones who got accustomed to em Like "it ain't that bad, i'm doing what I gotta do" f** that, It's me against the world I love that Martha say she think I'd make it, but she ain't want that Rather a lawyer, teacher, doctor but I ain't want that And people tell me what my father wants, like how u know that? He told u? Then could you point me to the Ouija board I try to visit grandma more, but I just be too paranoid Like, what if I'm there and she died? I know I'm wrong n***a I know it's life, but I just really ain't that strong n***a Plus thoughts linger that I barely get to see my sister She don't call, neither do I, but I'm older than her So I'm the blame? More proof that I need to grow more? Ignorance is bliss? Sometimes I hate the fact I know more Even still, all my flaws just make a better verse Chicks say that they love me, I'm aware of all the selfish words Maybe it's not, maybe I just hate that f**in word Maybe I had left too soon, or she got on my f**in nerves That's what happens most times, which ever happens first Maybe they were phases, so maybe ima f**in jerk I'm tryna win, all that other sh** is for the birds Rappers don't compete? I don't communicate in silver terms Remember Ash said he wanted to be the master? sh**, Goku never pa**ed up on a battle Every wrestler just wanted to have the title My whole childhood i was prepping to be a rapper Pen a verse to make a person face change up Rep Venture so much that everybody start to hate us Wake up everyday imagining when that day come Go to sleep every night still imagining when that day come I think about it and can't fathom to fail Its not conceit, you just hate the fact I'm out of my shell To live forever through these stories I tell As I stare at the flower I keep in my lapel