Barrier - Behind Closed Doors lyrics

I want nothing more than to fill the hole inside my heart Or else in my head, shoot me dead Because the pain never leaves I want to lie with the deceased And rid my self of all these thoughts that circle me But then again In the end That's what brought me here initially One man, two souls He leads, I follow One man, two souls He leads, I follow I'm left to deal With wounds that won't heal And only I know The way the blood flows inside my veins Could this be my last night Amongst the pains of sight? There's the man that you see with the innocent face Then there's the man that I feel Who's made a mess of the place My place, my home Where I'm left to be alone It's the last thing I had to myself Now his hands plaster my bones Theres a stench in my soul As my gut rots This lack of faith in control Nothing makes sense My heads in my hands There are fractures and dents And I don't know which wall to throw it against The ones who can't think or breathe Will make the best of company A family who would want the same for me A bed of wooden sheets Drill into my brain Please just this once treat me like you would the mentally insane Strap me down, fix me, fix me Make me believe That I'm one step closer to sanity One step closer to finally getting my closure The ones who can't think or breathe Will make the best of company A family who would want the same for me A bed of wooden sheets A bed of wooden sheets