Down in the dumps feeling like a piece of sh**. I'm doing nothing and I'm starting to get used to it. I respond in a total waste of all my time. The wait is painful. Days pa** that I don't remember. Kept still. I have no sense of what I am now or why I should even care. I don't think you can understand it right just what it's like to live on the outside of your own life as it pa**es you by. It's f**ed up. I've got the f**ed equipment. I don't think I can win at anything. I know it's not in me. Something was left out from the very start and catching up ain't worth enough. It would take too much. I don't think you can understand it right. Do you know what it's like? Down in the dumps feeling like a piece of sh**. I'm doing nothing and I'm starting to get used to it. My response is a total waste all my time. The wait is painful. Days pa** that I won't remember. Kept still. I have no sense of what I am now or why I should even care. I can't repair what I don't got. Missing the parts. Everything's spent. My hope is gone. The nerve is dead. I never had a chance. It's f**ed up. I've got the f**ed equipment. Let's break the f**ed equipment.