Baby Jay - Through the Worst lyrics

[Intro] *Voicemail* "I think you should straighten up a little bit, I think you should... I think you know you should look at yourself in the mirror sometimes and say look what am I doing? Why am I this way?" [Verse 1] I ain't holding back nothing I'ma give you my all It's hurting worse every single time I'm missing your call I've been trying to hold it down with my back against the wall Contemplating on my life inside a bathroom stall, God... I hope you hear me I'm calling This ain't bout the path that you chose for me, I'm falling I been tryna change my lane but I ain't ready I'm stalling Cause everybody wanna see me fail instead of me balling And that's quite rather okay if you ask me I know I can never change a thing about the past me All them stories that you tell but never asked me Coming for your a** with long nights and bad sleep All these bottles and d** gon be me downfall Put my pain inside this booth to these sound walls I ain't tryna see no court house or town halls On my own sh** I don't wanna be around y'all [Chorus] From the cradle to the grave I said it straight from my heart And ain't a motherf**ing thing that you can take from my art Been ahead of everybody in this race from the start Coming straight up from the bottom ain't afraid of the dark We grew apart it ain't your fault you know I went through the worse It's hard to tell you how I feel I put my pen to the verse Cause in my head I'm stuck day to day living a curse I need to focus on the future cause remembering hurts From the cradle to the grave I've been playing my part And ain't nobody do this for me I put my pain in my art I've been dead to everybody with a space in my heart Staying late up at the bottom found my way through the dark We grew apart it ain't your fault you know I went through the worse It's hard to tell you how I feel I put my pen to the verse Cause in my head I'm stuck day to day living a curse Need to focus on the future cause remembering hurts [Verse 2] Pop another pill pour another bottle Hop into the whip and then I floor the throttle Crashed into a wall then ignore the problem Me against the world can't nobody stop him And when I call you on the phone i hope you ask how I'm doing Instead of talking bout the path and the past that I've ruined Living fast too many questions getting asked Pursuing me like you ain't already been knowing the answers to em Like where you been, whats the matter, why you sleeping on yourself? Take a hint, my best answer I'm in need of some help Swear a bottle and some weed been what I keep for my health Headed nowhere going fast my CD on the shelf Somebody pray for me, let me know you on the way for me When I try to push you out I hope you stay for me Pray for me, I'm giving all that you can take from me Disappearing for months I hope you wait for me Pray for me, let me know you got a place for me Show me something real and keep the fake from me Pray for me, how many secrets can you save for me Tell me would you really catch a body or a case for me? [Bridge] I feel like I lost my mind they don't know I'm thinking Tell you I'm fine but this boat keep sinking Running outta time got me hopeless drinking Blocking my line cuz my phone keep ringing My friends told me they don't know me these days I deal with it getting faded in the loneliest ways I don't make it out the house I'm barely showing my face If we don't ever speak again this how I'm closing the case [Chorus] From the cradle to the grave I said it straight from my heart And ain't a motherf**ing thing that you can take from my art Been ahead of everybody in this race from the start Coming straight up from the bottom ain't afraid of the dark We grew apart it ain't your fault you know I went through the worse It's hard to tell you how I feel I put my pen to the verse Cause in my head I'm stuck day to day living a curse I need to focus on the future cause remembering hurts From the cradle to the grave I've been playing my part And ain't nobody do this for me I put my pain in my art I've been dead to everybody with a space in my heart Staying late up at the bottom found my way through the dark We grew apart it ain't your fault you know I went through the worse It's hard to tell you how I feel I put my pen to the verse Cause in my head I'm stuck day to day living a curse Need to focus on the future cause remembering hurts [Outro]