Baby Jay - Note to Self (Nikki Remix) lyrics

Man I swear to God I couldn't tell you everything that I done been through Memories fade, things change and your friends too Till they see you made it, bet they hate you in a Benz coupe Middle fingers waving, give a f** if it offends you I been gone a couple months, haven't heard from you Maybe I been smoking too much and I just turned from you She gon' disagree but b**h it ain't no mystery My bank history don't count a single dollar that I earned from you And it's hard for me to say it, but I live for it Part of me remembers everything that I give for it; Had to take some time to put together all the pieces You can never take it back and I know it cause I wished for it Whip imported, doors open up distorted Shift floor it, till the brake pedal lose grip for it Living reckless and forgetting to remember it But I could give a f** they say I live like a degenerate This ain't what you came for, it started sounding different Speaking from the brain started making all the difference My predicament is what I really wasn't ready for Used to drink heavy now I'm really drinking heavy more Been together seven years it's time for me to go I need to hit the road again its time for me to blow; Swear I think about you all the time but down deep I know That if I try to stay that I'll be headed 6 feet below What will they say when I ain't coming through the door? Maybe I was lost, maybe it was you I'm looking for; I know it's hard for me to leave but that's the beauty of the war sh** is breaking me down, straight through me to the core I'm bout to make a few calls, we gonna pick up some trees Didn't know me back then, I kept a trick up my sleeves Watch me bend a few corners as I shift up the speed Run game on your girl and get that b**h what she needs Man this sh** is a breeze, switch my income to g's Came up from nothing, swear that I been one with steez I was whippin' through the city, got my main b**h Nikki with me She gon' hold me down with the sh** until it comes to get me At least that's what I thought, but then it went and hit me Maybe you the reason that my bottle always running empty Is it May or December? What's my name I can't remember? " Baby to the Jay, don't you say it every song you sent me? " " What's the matter, you forgetting where you came from? Drugs and the liquor and the weed got your brain numb? Tell yourself you doing good, sh** you must be plain dumb Let me take you back tell me where to book the plane from? " But I ain't coming back, b**h I'm on my own two Cut a b**h off, got the numbers in my phone new Jesus couldn't save you if he had somebody clone you Charging more interest than a motherf**ing loan do Who do you call when everybody's in the past? I be staring at the walls, they don't answer when I ask Like what the f** I'm gonna do? If I don't think of something fast Ill be laying 6 feet, buried underneath the gra** and it's; It's a cold game, she do this sh** with no shame Fell in love with it, get a rush from it (c**aine) Fire propane, time to do my own thing Sometimes, you gotta look away when the phone rings I been doing good incase you might've wondered I've been drinking all night and getting high these few summers I was tryna make a living, 18 was on my own Somehow, found a way and by 20 I was grown Swear to God, I couldn't tell you everything that I done been through Memories fade, things change and your friends too Till they see you made it, bet they hate you in a Benz coupe Middle finger waving, Ima make this sh** offend you I'm breaking up with you, I'll be gone before you know it Couldn't tell you how I feel, I made a song so I could show it I could sell you with the words, all along I been a poet Smell it in the air, that's cause I'm rolling strong when I blow it I remember being young when I first met you You took the air from my lungs and it hurts that's true But at the end of the day I guess I paid that price; If I got one thing to say, I hope you played that twice