Aztec - March 23rd, 2010 lyrics

[Verse 1] (Eyes closed breath lingers somewhere far) Serpents will emerge from the embers when Birds chirp in December; buyers flirt with vendors Dyers circle the splendor of d**h (Eyes open dwindling gasps right here) White mice will submerge into water when I fight disembodiment; workers aren't deported Torturous nights are shorter than steps I know it isn't right to be thinking about you, but I cannot help it Sure, we're eye to eye, but I still fight nightly dreams about you Something I can't help, it's hereditary I told my children I am not a man Who justifies the terrible he does I understand I made a big commitment to another woman Other women think I think of other women Can't you see? I'm struggling I'm in love, but I fell in love again I was down, and you picked me up— Flower dead, you made me bud again One night won't abduct our spirits My dearest couldn't hear us if we screamed in agony So please, won't you break the aqueduct Give your body clearance to dance with me? [Hook] I am not a man Who justifies the terrible he does I understand how indulgent The rest of me has been But I promise, son, with every ounce of soul In this heart I must hold That you will eat yourself so slow Hunger will vanquish, and then she will come To you on a silver platter. Her thighs Are so smooth, like the liquor in your Lungs. You're in a different country, hijo With a coworker you've never met. And besides There's nothing a napkin can't clean [Verse 2] f** the Fluff when it comes Like hail and sleet and bed and sheets Will fly like insects full of Merries and Loves (eat) Hug the Hard so it leaves Like fall and rise and post and canopies Cover the heads of my Sorrows and Hates (starve) I, when I'm with you, wonder what the hell Hell is If such a place could even exist Self-detrimental, existential helplessness dispels in your presence What you mean accidental/coincidental? Our creator meant this Won't you please let me please you? I'll be your rental long as you don't dent this My family demanded I change my phone number But never mind it. Too many never minds makes a person mental Long as they don't know what hurts them; Long as they don't show their hurt, then; Long as I'm at work and in a different universe, then; We can spend the evening under bedding sweating, breathing Telling secrets, dreading demons till they catch us sleeping [Hook] Your father's preaching pedestal is the driver's seat He rests his hands on the podium and opens his mouth "If you're going to cheat," he tells you, "Don't do it in this town. She'll catch you." You laugh (why do you laugh), his heavy words packed into one rough brick which skims the top of your scalp, tearing follicles from roots, skin from flesh. "Te quiero mucho," you say, pulling on the door handle, stepping from the car into the air, crisp on your cheeks like dried tears, and pulling your hood over your head. In your head, you ask him, "Is that why you were a flight attendant?" "No," he tells you, "I love your mother." Indeed, he lies there too [Outro] You can have my soul You can make me whole When I'm with you, I forget When I'm with you, I forgive