Ain't dealin with myself right now nobody hear my voice when i shout loud i swear i just wanna leave this place Right now nobody cares im caving in all pressure from the gin all this liquor make my head spin round and round Im just sick of it i just wanna cave in Sight down wanna make it right now jocks wanna fight now i just wanna hide now nobody feelin my vibe now See i try to keep it positive but everyone just negative sleepin on me like a sedative dont look at rap Competitive i swear im ahead of it yeah when will i ever be okay brain so cancerous i might decay hurt almost Everyday i feel this way its over and the sad thing is that theres no cure i spent every second just so i can Be sure i kinda wish i was secure said i spent every day just so i can be sure Ain't dealin with myself right now nobody hear my voice when i shout loud i swear i just wanna leave this place Right now nobody cares im caving in all pressure from the gin all this liquor make my head spin round and round Im just sick of it i just wanna cave in I hate bringin this up but i have no friends lotta them fake no back in the end knew this one girl but she Dumped me cheated on me wasn't happy in the end i was cutting my wrists and cutting my arms Parents found out and that was an alarm i remember the night i tried suicide thought bout it real hard then i Cried told my best friend i was done then swallowed a few pills and saw the sun then everything was black And i tried coming back woke with 2 cops in my room she had called 911 i a**umed it was like 12am blessed i woke Up there and then got in the cruiser tires sped off