Avoid. - Once lyrics

The lights out on the city always seem to dull at night 'cause your eyes are so damn bright, I'd stare them down 'til both of mine go blind The flicker of a lighter; the smell of a cigarette; your secondhand tastes sweet We ventured into alleys, singing all those songs; it was chorus after chorus, I didn't care if the words were wrong Let go of your fears, get ready for this. You know I love you As I'm sinking into the depths of your bed I'm sensing silence slowly stuttered into heavy heaving....breaths I woke up smiling by a window in a highrise in the city you lived in. Felt a small breeze drift in; it flew through my shirt, when the chill hit my bones I kissed you nose to nose. I found love in your eyes and the words that you spoke. Rid every ounce of doubt. I found purpose in your laugh and the roof of your mouth There are delicate truths hidden deep in the corners of your lips I would kiss them every night just to get a taste of some of it Spent the day in the car driving through state lines back from your parents house. Coldest december, the ice keeps you afraid. Gas pedal pressed too hard, no stop to my body's tremble. Nothing you say will convince me that it happened any different Why was it him? Was I ever enough? Were you always with him on the nights I was gone? Do you see his face when you stare into mine? If it's nothing at all, why won't you say goodbye? "Don't blame me for the things in your head, I'm not your past. I'm not the things that she did. There is a part of you that never let's go, this blame is on you." I'll hold it, 'til I'm gone I was a man once, now I can't breathe. Gla** scalp, heart beat, there's blood on her cheeks. Under the hood, I hear her scream "Somebody, somebody please" Tell me father, is it okay to cry when I am a murderer? May not find forgiveness in life, but I found a bottle Bathe me in blood; soak my guilt hands; I lost faith when I lost her