Autumn Keys - If design dictates function, what am i? lyrics

If i could explain it, then i would You know i would And if i could explain it, then i would I know i should And if i could explain it, then i would Oh i would I wrote a lot of words that i never meant Left my selfish tendencies encased inside a sediment My regiment is endless I'm the president of weathermen So catch me on a rainy day with feathers in a weather brim It ain't a mystery why history is myth to me I watch the planet dwindle into entropy My friends and me are listening to milo and a tree house made of toothpicks Building toward the sky, we'll be swimming in that blue midst Until we hit the sun, like a liquor scented Icarus My wax wings are catching the flickering that finished it The flames Forgetting i'm the same as greek legends were 'cuz i'm looked back upon with a separate curve That's the only reason i was ever pa**in' cla**es Sat in back with half-rim gla**es, playin' pokemon and laughin' And instructions from the substitute Function into someone new But nameless at the same I'm heaven's sin if that's enough for you I said But nameless at the same I'm heaven's sin if that's enough for you Blowin' up my courage via self imposing subterfuge I feel like a frame, in which there sits a picture Which resembles every fixture i can visit through elixirs I'm not trippin', i'm not crazy, i'm not steppin' out of line I'm the only function circumventing it's design And ignoring every law set in place in the past I'm a jackson pollock painting in a plague doctor's mask I'm an aphrodisiac with a rather sleazy knack For retainin' information when it pa**es through my back I'm a tip of a knife, in the grip of a vice I'm weak, the old me is still invisionin' life From the barrier that d**h creates, carryin' the message late This is but an ode to the precarious and second rate This is but an overthought an*lysis of balance in society Variety is quietly expiring And i can see the ambien inclusion on my sides Opening the gates, before i open up my eyes And see... Open up my eyes, and wait till i fall back asleep Back asleep See, i stopped using a fake voice in rap. stop pretending i was someone who is stronger than i am. stop fasilitating ego on a hunt for validation. and i somehow ended up exactly where i started, and exactly where i started is exactly where i am. in my room alone at 4AM with nothing i can stand. i forgot the person who i used to be, he's in the past now, and i'm still waiting for the future