Autumn Keys - If design dictates function, what am i? w/ autumn keys lyrics

If i could explain it, then i would You know i would And if i could explain it, then i would I know i should And if i could explain it, then i would Oh i would I wrote a lot of words that i never meant Left my selfish tendencies encased inside of sediment My regiment is endless I'm the president of weathermen So catch me on a rainy day with feathers in a weather brim It ain't a mystery why history is myth to me I watch the planet dwindle into entropy My friends and me are listening to milo and a tree house made of toothpicks Building toward the sky, we'll be swimming in that blue midst Until we hit the sun, like a liquor scented Icarus My wax wings are catching the flickering that finished it The flames Forgetting i'm the same as greek legends were 'cuz i'm looked back upon with a separate curve That's the only reason i was ever pa**in' cla**es Sat back, havin' blasts, playin' pokemon and laughin' And instructions from the substitute Functionin' as someone new But nameless at the same Hope that's enough for you The sun But nameless at the same Hope that's enough for you Blowin' up my courage via self imposed substitutes I feel like a frame, in which there sits a picture Which resembles all the fixtures that i can visit through elixir I'm not trippin', i'm not crazy, i'm not steppin' out of line I'm the only function circumventing it's design And ignoring every law set in place in the past I'm a jackson pollock painting in a plague doctor's mask I'm an afrodesiac with a rather sleezy nack For retainin' information when it pa**es through my back I'm a tip of a knife, in the grip of a vice I'm weak, the old me is still invisionin' life From the barrier d**h creates, carryin' the message late This is but an ode to the precarious and second rate This is but an overthought an*lysis of malice in society Variety is quietly expiring And i can see the ambien inclusion on my sides Openin' up the gates, before i open up my eyes And see... Open up my eyes, and wait till i fall back asleep Back asleep See, i stopped using a fake voice in rap. stop pretending that i was someone who is stronger than i am. stop phasilitating ego on a hunt for validation. and i somehow ended up exactly where i started, and exactly where i started is exactly where i am. in my room alone at four AM with nothing i can stand. i forgot the person who i used to be, he's in the past now, and i'm still waiting for the future