We were waking up There was some blood coming from my mouth And a little fear my heart I knew the concern you were showing As my lover dying in thought As my breath became so shallow and sparse It's been a long time since then But I could feel myself repairing Before I began to damage myself again And I conceded my father and my brother just as well We cannot escape the cause of this lifestyle My breath is a hammer My insides are taxed like an anvil My heartbeat's a tremor And I have not love but for nicotine And I was sick all of the winter and summer aren't more the same Was always sweatstained and frozen Yet hot like an engine And with sleep came the cursing You know I... (???) I (???) like hands clasp themselves with conviction There is little a man can do When his body is bent on a reckoning These wounds can be hidden so well Yeah (?) like a demon And I can hear it in my voice, oh Lord Can't you hear it too? And it scares me almost to tears As I know it will take you My breath is a hammer My insides are taxed like an anvil My heartbeat's a tremor And I have not love but for nicotine My breath is a hammer My insides are taxed like an anvil My heartbeat's a tremor And I have not love but for nicotine