Austin Collins - Today lyrics

Today I tried to k** you but it was only in my head His words have betrayed you so I k** myself instead Dear soul I lied to you I was only playing games But you did well to take the beatings that I gave Wake up crying every mornings the same Choke back the tears and play the waiting game Talk to your TV like its your best friend Go to bed so you can do it all over again Sitting on your hands it takes booze to make you move When help is only halfway from the things you shouldn't do Today I tried to k** you but it was only in my mind Pills are so expensive so I k** myself this time CHORUS It's the fallout that you fear So afraid you'll disappear How long, how long have I been lied to again I can feel the shame of shadows in your gaze But I'm not wrong if you are Don't wanna waste your time Today I tried to k** you but it was only in my mind CHORUS