ATO - Reflection lyrics

And now you're questioning the decisions I'm making lately Said that's rich coming from someone who barely gave me a penny If you were here you'd understand my reflection 'Cause standing over there gives you an ill-informed perception Of who I am, who I'm meant to be and the couches between 'Cause when you wake up is when I'll be living the dream I've embarked upon this journey alone Now I'm four years within the unknown but yet so lyrically grown sh** How did my life become like this It's all a puzzle, drinking, I can find the answer in the bottom of this bottle Life's a struggle So we work just to work more When a last floor says has fallen through a thousand more When the rich take less to the grave than the poor My mum's calling my phone and I'm on the road I take the call, she's low, saying she's been diagnosed With the same sh** that had me wear a black suit and tie When my mother's mother said goodbye back in '99 There's a thin line between love and hate And I see people cross the border every day And I see people hustling to find change In the pursuit to find change All I know is ATO, come home ATO ain't ready, ATO needs to get more The hourgla**'s pressure ain't resistant Thoughts of pessimism Despite all these feelings be the rhythm to the way I'm living And if you find a diamond in the dirt A broken bridge by a river, or a sinner by a church Trust I know life is too short To not give time to a possibility without hope Young guy, you don't know why Living in the city where they leave you by the roadside All I know in the place where I've grown is I don't wanna be like him Young guy, you don't know why Living in the city where they leave you by the roadside All I know in the place where I've grown is I don't wanna, I don't wanna, I don't wanna, I don't wanna Think about you, drink about you I tried with you, but you pushed me away Way deeper into yesterday Hold up where you going, you best not be playing games One fight away from changing this picture inside this frame See when you go is not back to my usual Young artistic n***a in the city with that pencil full of pain Into walking in the rain And the raindrops they fall heavy for me It's funny, feel like it's Gods way of tryna speak to me Well that's what I feel Feel what I imagine is real Just a flower in this field Tryna find my way between The pretty lady's finger and thumb And she's God Cause she controls the feelings I've got But I've got so much on my brain these days I feel the waves getting far too big to handle [Fail] to turn this sh** the other way Sail back to the harbor like your average Joe and play it safe But that's not life it's not what I chose The Romans made these roads that I refuse to follow populated with people that don't see past the tip of their nose In the process lost a place called home Lost myself Lost my girl Feel as if I'm alone staring at the park There's a billion people that feel the same Life is how you see it and I see it as a frame The picture that it holds becomes clear on your final days Pray it's never my choice to choose to give the brush away Young guy, you don't know why Living in the city where they leave you by the roadside All I know in the place where I've grown is I don't wanna be like him Young guy, you don't know why Living in the city where they leave you by the roadside All I know in the place where I've grown is I don't wanna, I don't wanna, I don't wanna, I don't wanna That's when I realized I'd rather have real enemies than fake friends Be true to me than lying cheating on Sunday, say Amen I keep spinning the world on the tip of my fingers [Stressing] the waves Causing tsunamis k**ing them ma**es Watching em pray Twenty four hours a day Just to test em If I stop it, wonder who calls it a blessing Wonder who sees the disaster Wonder who can see the lesson But my left hand keeps on spinning it I'm out of control My eyes reflecting the cadence with no intention to close And now you're questioning the decisions I'm making lately Said that's rich coming from someone who barely gave me a penny If you were here you'd understand my reflection Cause standing over there gives you an ill informed perception Of who I am, who I'm meant to be, and the couches between Cause when you wake up is when I'll be living the dream ATO, Have you been up all night?