[Verse 1] When I was younger, I didn't think that I would live For as long as I've been living it And I ain't saying I expected to die before that number got high Just never deliberately considered it, go figure it Who'd known I'd 'a had so many kids And the first one's grown n' doesn't answer his phone The third sun from the stone got me supposing I'm supposed to focus on keeping this home Outta foreclosure from all four corners Feels like I'm riding on an old roller-coaster The ghost of Christmas sober Mostly, but I'mma overdose on these four leaf clovers You can dance like a crash survivor You can laugh or cry, whatever pacifies you Funny how time flies To my family sets my raft on fire [Hook] I don't pretend to be cool, don't pretend to be young I don't pretend to be smart, don't pretend to be dumb I don't pretend to be hard, don't pretend to be first And most of all I don't pretend to be concerned I don't pretend to be rich, don't pretend to be broke I don't pretend to be asleep, don't pretend to be woke I don't pretend to be deep, don't pretend to be clean I'm everything and everything that's in between [Verse 2] They said you only get one life But I lived at least four lives in the life I'm living in now And if I could handwrite what they say when I'm gone It's that he's said everything that he could fit in his mouth I got the coldest shoulder in the solar system I know because I drove around this whole existence Resistance to personal growth seems suspicious What, you really didn't want to go the distance I don't stand still, wander off, I'm a drifter Look at the bigger digital panoramic picture You catch a panic attack from try'na handle the facts You inanimate on a map Wait though, I'll never be finished, infinity Grateful for every opportunity you've given me And when the time's right, y'all can lighten up Like there's too much life to love [Hook]