Ashtin Larold - I Wonder (Remix) lyrics

I wonder how it came to this Out of gas, with nowhere to turn With the torch still in my hand I stand and watch it burn As my lungs fill with ashes Feel the wind as it fans the flames Hear a voice inside my head Nothing ventured, nothing gained I wonder how it came to this Wonder when I lost my art I wonder how I lost my pa**ion Lost my vision, lost that spark Once upon a time, there was a raging fire, but now that's dark Now that's dark, press restart I got so lost and forgot my heart I got buried by every promise I broke Every empty line that I wrote Now this game feels like a noose on my throat With a crowd that cheers me on as I choke I can't breathe, but I can't stop now 'Cause I got fans that I can't let down And dreams that I'm not done chasing And people that I love that I ain't made proud I look in the mirror, and I don't recognize the person I see But people that I've never met in my life see me on the street and can recognize me How can that be? People know me more than I know myself I guess it's ironic they call me the Devil 'Cause I'm so damn tired of livin' in hell When did I get so old? When did I get so jaded? When did it stop being fun, and turn into labor? I love it so much that I hate it I'm so tired... So tired of being overlooked and underrated I can't take it How much more can this game take away from me before I make it!?! AAAGGHHH! I wonder how it came to this Out of gas, with nowhere to turn With the torch still in my hand I stand and watch it burn As my lungs fill with ashes Feel the wind as it fans the flames Hear a voice inside my head Nothing ventured, nothing gained I wonder when it came to this I wonder when I lost my pa**ion Lost my drive, lost my vision Lost my ethics, lost my action Man, what happened to the times when I enjoyed what I imagined? Now that's in the past And now the fame controls all my reactions Overlappin' on what was true So now I just feel like a tool For the people to escape what they gotta deal with when they're through With all the pain that you got inside of your brain when it's hauntin' you Every night, thinkin' you're sick of your life, and thinkin' of takin' it, too! Damn...I'm, like, in a feud with the man in the mirror Knows all my fears Tellin' me maybe I'm searchin' for something inside of myself that's not even there It's not even fair! 'Cause all of my friends are enjoying their lives, while I'm stuck in this chair Makin' my music for people who don't give a f** about me Man, they don't even care! They don't even care... About my life, or about my stress Or about those nights when I'm just depressed Try my best to tune it out But you don't care when the mic turns off... So I'm sorry, Mom, when I grab that gun 'Cause it might go off... I wonder how it came to this Out of gas, with nowhere to turn With the torch still in my hand I stand and watch it burn As my lungs fill with ashes Feel the wind as it fans the flames Hear a voice inside my head Nothing ventured, nothing gained