As It Is - Often lyrics

I often think to myself, "Don't let your guard down." But my f**ing useless arms are always tired I'm worse than I've ever been I used to find comfort in how everyone's got problems And it's selfish of me But I'd rather just be fine I take precautions like they're bad advice When I'm lacking ideas I plan for self-destruction every time But never pick up the pieces I'm in constant need of self-validation And I'm closed to new ideas, yet so impatient 'Cause I can't have everything And is it too much to be asking for something just once Can you really blame me That I want to just feel fine I don't have anything worth dying for But at least I'll live longer Often, I'm not alone, but can't break my stare to back home Narrow eyes will never know where to go (Everyday the sun will shine, but gets blocked on every side)