Arkh Zeus - Hell's Winter lyrics

[Verse 1] Follow me into the chateau of my mind Where I've been tryna find A sign of higher highs that's fly and quite divine To keep me level headed 'fore I fall in the abyss Of pretentiousness and desolate, intense, depressive sh** f** it, let's take a trip into that dungeon We could see if I plummet or make it back to the summit Or maybe I'll find a balance that's valid and not dramatic And use it to make the patterns more easier to stomach Or maybe I'll just shrink 'til what's left is my sacrifice In order to get closer towards my paradise The deal has been set, I done rolled my pair of dice And yeah I fear d**h, but I'm way more scared of life Cause time's got me lifeless, drowning in whiteness Watching it all pierce through the depths of my skin Impairing my sight and it'd prolly be frightenin' If I didn't invite this, I'm kind of excited, ight then So 'tis the season where everything just decays From every single tree to the cells that grow in my brain This hourgla** of happiness I've been tryna sustain The sand is what inspired me, and it's down to a grain The undergoing of change with no definite gains The pain that will remain til the dummy is slain And the dummy just so happens to be myself, a scared prisoner Dare to enter, welcome to hell's winter [Hook] Where I'll be your friend Pray that we end up dead, so that we could ascend And like Big Brother said "I'll never do it again Cause this is the end, cause this is the end" [Verse 2] All of my sicknesses took the initiative of just befriending me Instead of ending me, now they're definitely me enemies They'll be the end of me, that's just a prediction Cause I cling to irony, so the end should be different And I swear I'm optimistic, but that just doesn't help Whether I'm that or the opposite, I just can't free myself From this never-ending saga that always goes good to bad But the good that exists are only delusions that I have And I can't let them go, so damn them devils I can't let them show this damned and enclosed Path in which I'm drifting in, I'll slant and tremble Way back to the beginning where I'm bland and dreadful Then echo my words up to the astrals Hoping I'm not ignored even though I'm a ha**le I'll never be restored so I'll just have to battle The cycle's been reborn just to leave me in shackles So 'tis the season where everything just decays From every single tree to the cells that grow in my brain This hourgla** of happiness I've been tryna sustain The sand is what inspired me, and it's down to a grain The undergoing of change with no definite gains The pain that will remain til the dummy is slain And the dummy just so happens to be myself, a scared prisoner Dare to enter, welcome to hell's winter [Hook] [Outro] Boulder; Metaphor for the heavy weight that now rests upon my shoulders.. As I get older, accepting the fact that my heart has grown colder No longer warm like so(u)lar, feeling soulless Like an empty vessel that's tipping over into the ocean So watch me drown.. Everything's loud.. Don't make a sound.. Just listen how.. Everything now.. Seems so profound.. There's no more frowns There's only smiles.. 'Tis my new house.. I'm happy now.. Hell's Winter..