Apoptygma Berzerk - Shadow (Essence of Mind remix) lyrics

Staring at the ceiling sorting out my thoughts Weighing every word I want to say Darkness fills the room, it's closing in on us The words all come out wrong again, I let you down If I could just trust more I'd dare to speak the truth Wish I could give one hundred percent It's sad and unfair, you too are suffering When I'm the guilty you are the innocent For way too long I've been merely a shadow of my true self I'm in despair I'm beyond repair A shadow hanging over me it clouds my mind Preventing any sane thoughts to occur A silhouette is cast on your side of the bed Reminding me of what I have become For way too long I've been merely a shadow of my true self I'm in despair I'm beyond repair